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Am I a writer...

or just another untalented nobody romanticizing a fictional future nowhere near my grasp?
I don't even want to begin talking about the fact that I have zero qualifications to do anything else in this world. I'm a robot. A lonely and cold robot.

Top films of 2010

I've not seen every film released last year but as of right now here are my favorites.


1. Enter the Void


2. Scott Pilgrim vs. The World


3. Black Swan


4. Dogtooth


5. Blue Valentine


6. Father of my Children


7. Toy Story 3


8. Catfish


9. Social Network


10. The Girl with the Dragon tattoo


Films I've yet to see:
Somewhere, Carlos, Kings Speech, How to train a Dragon, Animal Kingdom, The kids are alright, Joan Rivers: a piece of work, Ghost Writer, Greenberg.

Films that disappointed me:
True Grit, Exit through the Giftshop, The Fighter (oh my god that movie sucked)

2010 in a jiffy.

2010 switched back and forth between a roller coaster and a row boat. The year started out great with a much needed vacation to New York. On my return I was awarded with a promotion and the opportunity to keep my nights free. For those who don't know, for the past few years I had worked a full time night shift job. Coming in at 5:30pm and getting out at 2:00am. Sounds like hell, right? Yeah, it was. So much in fact that a full-time day shift job in even the most monotonous position sounded heavenly. The idea (dream?) was to reconnect with old friends, make plenty more, catch every film, every band and party the nights away. Basically, have a normal life. That didn't happen.

As the weeks went by my mental state hadn't changed. I was still the same old bitter fucking asshole I had always been. People didn't pull away from me because I worked a night shift position and thus had very little time to give. It was because I was a vortex of negative energy sucking in everyone who came near me. Once this realization finally set in, something quite strange happened. I came across this postcard right above on postsecret.com. Once I saw it I immediately smiled. This quote has stayed with me ever since, as well as a very special gal I met a few weeks after.

I realized the only thing keeping me from happiness was myself. I didn't need the day shift at all, but to embrace life, even the darkest of times, in a positive manner, truly work hard on my career, expand my knowledge on all things, and welcome all those whom I cross paths with (still working on that last one. I mean come on, once a cynical asshole, always a cynical asshole, right?).

So, how is Jesse.

Pretty damn good.

One must be asking oneself how someone with such a long and dark history of cynicism, pessimism, and depression can now be found strolling the streets of Los Feliz with such a grand look of contempt. Well, my curious little friend, I've never been so in tune with my creative side. I'm writing more than I ever have, spending less time in front of the television screen, researching films, listening to great tunes, and spending my weekend nights with the prettiest 21 year old girl you'll see all year. How could I not be feeling pretty, pretty, pretty damn good.

"It's not you, it's me"

You've got to be shitting me.

BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER, BABY!

I'm back to writing and guess what (hint: the title gives it away) I am feeling freaking great! This dirtbag at work today even brought up the fact that I don't seem to mope around anymore. In fact I'm the complete opposite: energized, optimistic and laughing all the time. Cheers for me.

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Rolling Roadshow

There's a group of people touring the country screening films that pertain to the specific city they tour to. They're called 'Rolling Roadhouse' and are sponsored by 'The Alamo Drafthouse' (famous theatre in Austin, TX) and 'Levi's'. The screening are free and lots of fun. Two nights ago I made the pilgrimadge to Bakersfield to see one of the greatest films of all time, 'There will be Blood'. Check out their website, maybe they'll be in your town.

http://rollingroadshow.com/

Lost

I'm beginning to regress back to my comfort zone: depression. To help, I've decided to focus on the positives in my life.

- Despite the beliefs of the hypercondriac inside of me, I still have my health.

- I live in a relatively safe neighborhood.

- My apartment has more space than I know what to do with.

- I have the luxury of having a maid clean my apartment.

- Financially, I'm doing much better than many of the people I went to school with.

- I'm in relatively good shape.

- I'm attractive. At least I think so.

- I have great taste in film and music. God, just listen to my playlist! WOW!

- I have personality.

- I have intelligent friends who constantly challenge me.

- I still have passion burning inside of me.

- I still have a dream.

There. Now I feel better.

Don't trust anyone.

They will always disappoint you.

Just don't. Trust me.

Bowling with people you don't know

While bowling with 2 of my closest friends I took the opportunity to test out the HD video recording and editing software on the iPhone4.

Here is the result.

Movies to watch

The swedish film "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" was released earlier this year in the United States, immediately jumping on to my very short list of films I've seen in this incredibly sad year for films that is actually worth remembering. It was released on video in the past week to help boost interest for its sequel "Girl who Played With Fire", which is being released in theaters today. Look for the second sequel "The Girl who Kicked the Hornets Nest" later this year.

Grizzly Bear + Beach House

Two of my favorite contemporary bands came together for this song. It creates a sonic orgasm so powerful it would make Justin Bieber cum from his toe nails. You've been warned.

From the Twilight: New Moon soundtrack (I'm not gay! I never even saw the movie! Ok, maybe I did, BUT IT WAS FOR WORK, PEOPLE! FOR WORK!!!! )

Extreme Boot Camp!

Saturday begins my month long Extreme Boot Camp fitness course. That is all.

Thinking of buying a car.

I'm thinking a convertible. It's a bit tricky going about buying one when you're income can't feed your hunger for the luxurious. 90% percent of what's out there is way beyond my means. So what now? Oh... I know.

A Jeep Wrangler.

It's rugged, goes off-road, cool and reasonably priced. Why the hell not? Sure it eats up a ton of gas but that's why I have a scooter, my main source of transportation. The Jeep will mainly be used to go on long trips, visit new places, friends, and most importantly staying away from the rain.

Now it's just a matter of finding that great deal.

What I've been up to in the past few months.

I worked really hard to get down to 175 lbs, got drunk for 20 days straight, gained 10 pounds. Worked 12 hour shifts 3/4th of the time; I hardly had time to myself.

It should be quite clear to you that I obviously didn't get the loft in downtown. The loft I applied for is currently only available for those with low-income, something I am not (although, not by much). I did purchase the sound system I wanted but opted to stay away from a projector for the time being. In less than a month I'm moving into Loz Feliz with a friend and we've agreed to use his television as our main source of entertainment in the living-room. I was a bit disappointed at first, since I had been so obsessed with building the perfect home theatre but, it's for the best. I need to be more focused on my career and less on entertainment. This includes less drinking and going out.

I can't allow myself to continue on with this go nowhere life style I've adapted.

That's all I'll write for now. That last sentence seems like the right place to end this post.

SERIOUSLYOMFGREALLY!

I can't wait for June 24th!! Why?

TAKE A WILD FUCKING GUESS!!!!!!!

Coming soon...

MORE OF ME!

Stay cool, my babies.

No time whatsoever

I have tons to write but absolutely no time to do so. I've been working 10 - 12 hour days, 6 days a week for the past 3 weeks and there's hardly any indications that this will end any time soon. I'll keep this post short and briefly let you know what's been taking up my minds time outside of work.

I recently applied for a loft in Downtown LA and am completely obsessed with setting up the perfect home entertainment center once I move in (if I move in).

At first I wanted a plasma television but after much, much, MUCH research I stumbled upon a review for the worlds first economically accessible 1080p projector for your home. I NEED THIS!

Then I thought about splurging out on a Bose 2 speaker sound system but read more than a few negative comments on it, and after much research I've decided to go with this sound receiver.

Currently I'm doing research on speakers and a screen to project on.

Wish me luck on the loft. I really, really, REALLY want it.

Ciao!

UPDATE!

I'm going with these speakers. They're listed for $999 but many dealers are selling it for as little as $400. The reviews say these are fantastic and well worth the price. I CANT WAIT!!

UPDATE x2

And I'm going with this screen.

In your face, bitches.

Ciao!